Listening to one of my favorite songs, Truth Is by Fantasia, the American Idol winner, this article I had to write. Fantasia is talking about someone she let go, and the fact that she shouldnt have let him go in the first place. She ran into him, and she realized that she was still in love with him. I understand where Fantasia is coming from because I feel the same one. Every time I hear this song which is often, I find myself thinking about the man that is no longer in my life. This song brings back so many memories. I get into the song but an image of his face appears right in front of me. I began to think about the times we shared together, the good and the bad times. Sometimes this song makes me cry because the memories are so vivid, and I find myself weeping like a weeping willow bent on causing suffering to myself. I find myself missing this man, and wishing that our relationship could have stood the test of time; was able to survive when the bomb went off; the thunder hit the lightening, and the rain turned to snow. I feel so negative feeling so blue and down about myself. I wasnt enough for him. He just didnt love me enough to make our relationship work. I wasnt important in his eyes. Its a sad state of affairs to me because I really loved him, but if someone doesnt love you back, its time to move on. Although he had some crazy ways, there were times when I liked being with him, and around him. He lit up my world, and I thought we would ride the sunset together, but I was so wrong. I thought he was my soul mate. I still cant get over the fact that this man is not my soul mate. I have to come to these home truths. I am getting over him, but the pain is still evident, and I still want to be with him. In the reality of the situation some men are good for us, and others are a parade to doom. He was both, and I still love him after all the pain he caused me, I am still in love with this man. What a curse for me. Im crazy as sin, but this is how I feel. If he came knocking on my door right at this moment, Id be glad to see him, but I wouldnt take him back because I am not stupid or a glutton for punishment. There are times when I stare at my phone wishing it would ring, and hed be on the other end of the line; I might run into him in the street, or he might just pop over my house. There are times I dont want to see him, and just let the memories keep me going. Hes fading surely but slowly. Hes sticks on the brink of my self-consciousness; I feel him, and true love doesnt fly away like the birds in the summer time. True love is a feeling that last forever. The truth is why did I let him go? I had no choice in the matter, and when I come back down to earth, then these reasons will become a fixture on my mind. Ill smile because this person is out of my life. How do you mend a broken heart? 1. You can find another mate. 2. Keep yourself so busy you wont think about him. 3. Call him. 4. Get over him. 5. Read a good book. 6. Go out with friends. 7. Stop thinking about him. 8. Get over the memories 9. Move on. As I try to follow these nine steps I think about the words to this song, chapter in my past, seeing someone else, feelings that I thought was gone came rushing to me at once, never got over you, Im still in love with you, I never should have let you go, its killing me because now I know; the truth hurts, I let him go, tried to get over it, messing with my mind. Chapter in my past the past is the past. I need to remember this. Its time for the future and what the future will bring. Seeing someone else of course he was dating someone else. He wasnt sitting at home waiting for me. Feelings that I thought was gone came rushing to me at once so true, butI might have feelings for him forever. Im wondering is he thinking about me. Never got over you Sometimes we have to let go. Im still in love with you Love is not enough most of the time. I never should have let you go I cant hold onto someone who doesnt want me to catch them. Its killing me because now I know I know my feelings, and I know the truth. We just cant be together. The Truth hurts the reasons why we broke up is the truth. We dont want to accept the truth, but its the only way. I let him go Our relationship could have continued the way it was. I had to end it because I wasnt getting what I wanted out of the relationship. Let him go! Tried to get over it I will in time, but its a healing process. Its like someone dying, and you never get over a death. Messing with my mind The pressure of wanting to be with him and knowing its not the right thing to do is a headache, but again, let him go! Let the memories keep you going until they eventually disappear. The Truth Is will always be my favorite song, and one day when I listen to it, Im going to have my soul mate right here with me. He will be my Truth Is. (989) |